Today's post is going to be somewhat of a follow-up to last night's. I wanted to take more time to reflect on my Sunday and compare my mental/emotional states. Fortunately, my claims from last night proved true -- I'm already in a much better place. It's hard to describe... I wouldn't say I'm stress-free (these assignments haven't gone anywhere) but I guess it just isn't as intimidating.
Likely correlated to my anxiety last night, I was less productive than I would have hoped yesterday. That's how almost every Sunday seems to go, however. And I definitely made progress so I can't complain too much. This week is gonna be a big grind but I think I'm ready. I think since it's so close now, rather than counting down the days till graduation (it's 29 😳), I can leverage it for more motivation. I'll keep y'all posted how that works out.
I think another reason that I often feel strange after a few days at home is because a part of me is realizing that soon enough I won't be able to retreat to the comfort of my childhood memories and support of family and hometown friends. Moreover, I think I get a little bit of that "you don't know what you're missing till it's gone" type thing. I feel like, unfortunately and unintentionally, I take for granted all the wonderful things about Easton and my family. I always plan to be more present but I must admit that I struggle to separate work from leisure -- I can see how over time this can be really detrimental so I'm working hard to nip it in the bud early. Obviously, this weekend was a bit different because my intention was to focus almost exclusively on schoolwork, but the point still stands.
No promises, but I think tomorrow's post won't be quite so personal!
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