It's currently 8:30pm on Sunday and I've been back in College Park for about an hour. I wanted to start this post now because of the way I'm feeling after just a few days in Easton. I've been fortunate enough to go home a few times this semester and every time I return to College Park I'm met with this weird anxiety/stress that I had never experienced before this year. I assume that, despite its somewhat ethereal nature, this type of feeling is one shared by many of us at different points in our lives and/or during different scenarios. I also experience a similar phenomenon at other times -- I think it has a lot to do with stress and whether I am doing a good job at managing/coping with it. Even though I was doing schoolwork all weekend, coming back to campus feels like a whole new beast that I'll never conquer. The feeling never lasts long and I'm getting much better at recognizing that it isn't necessarily a bad thing and soon enough it'll go away. Thanks to the 10-day meditation course I attended back in January and my continued (almost) daily practice, I've learned that the best way to deal with states of anxiety, stress, anger, etc. is to simply accept them without judgement or contempt. Rather than try to solve the unwanted emotion with a distraction, or worse, let the emotion spiral into more negative emotions, we can just observe it while its here and watch inevitably fade away. I know this may sound crazy and I wish I could articulate it better but I hope you kinda see what I'm saying. The bottom line is that no matter how weird they feel or inexplicable they are, emotions are normal -- don't resist them and don't run, just observe ☯
Well, I intended to just write a couple sentences about this and then finish it in the morning for my daily blog, but I think I ought to post this separately and write another one in the morning. Look at me over-achieving! Thanks for reading and acting as my therapist 💛
See ya in the mornin!
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