Friday, May 12, 2023

Day 40 -- The Blog has a new home!

Good evening blog readers! I'm super late to posting today but the streak continues! When I started posting daily in April I had no intentions or expectations to hit 40 days but it honestly would feel weird to stop now. So, we move 😤

And by move, I mean it's time to move to a new blog platform! Blogger has done me no wrong but I was convinced rather easily by a new friend I met today to try out Substack. The way the site is set up allows for multiple people to have their own pages as extensions from the main one (I think). So, I'm trying to make a Team Tahoe page in which my teammates and I can all share our individual stuff as well as team stuff. Even though it might not look like it, I spent several hours customizing and learning how to use my new home -- it was actually quite fun. Right now I have it organized for the whole team but no one has officially joined me yet... either way, I think using Substack will take the blogs to the next level 😎

Please check out the site and subscribe to be updated on every post! You can also download the app: https://substack.com/app

Blogger, I hope you understand. It's not you, it's me 💔

Thursday, May 11, 2023

Day 39 -- My final college class ever!(?)

Well, I'm done with my college classes... maybe forever. Yesterday I provided my final contribution as a UMD student; I presented a few slides for my group's final project and was in charge of the slide clicker 😎 Then, after listening to 5 other groups present on basically the same exact topic, my LAST last day of class was complete.

I don't really feel much different right now. Honestly, I feel kinda confused because my schedule is now so free. I have no assignments to complete and only two exams to study for next week. The good news is that I have plenty of stuff to fill this time with! I'll be researching/emailing/calling potential hosts and mission projects for the Summer, figuring out what I'm doing after we finish in August, relaxing and hanging with friends, and I really need to get some more miles on the bike 😅

I want to give a huge thank you to all of you who have been a part of my life as a student. I'm extremely humbled by and gracious for the experiences that have all led me to this moment. It's so crazy to think about all the decisions we make and the results that follow... who knows how different my life would be if I didn't come to UMD. Or what if I never joined the Red Cross Club and thus never saw that GroupMe message to join 4K? I don't know if can put into words how thankful I am that all these little moments have lined up perfectly but maybe I'll figure it out someday. For now, I'll just appreciate the complexity of it all and do my best to enjoy the life I get to live.

So, without further ado, I have ~18 miles calling my name and a bike fit with Proteus after!!


p.s. thanks to everyone who reached out about potential hosts! I'll keep y'all updated on that stuff :)


Happily,

Hayden


This now significant photo was taken after donating blood for the first time on Sept. 23rd, 2021. I was so proud and happy because I realized how easily I could help someone else! I've since donated 5-6 times and as you all know have extended my giving efforts much more. Just keep giving <3


Wednesday, May 10, 2023

Day 38 -- Asking for your help again

Hey gang! I already made a post about this a couple days ago, but since I don't have an idea of what to write about today, I thought I'd reshare this. Thank you in advance for any & all help!

Team Tahoe is still looking for hosts in a bunch of places out West. Please check out the list below to see if you know anywhere we might be able to stay!



We still need a place to rest our weary heads in these cities:


We're also looking for a great place to stay in Baltimore during orientation (late May/early June) and somewhere around Frederick, MD on day 1 (June 4th)

Please reach out to me on instagramfacebook, or email (haydenkwilliam@gmail.com) if you have connections in any of these cities. Thank you :)

Tuesday, May 9, 2023

Day 37 -- Come with me to San Fran! (You don't have to run or bike)

Howdy y'all! 

Today, I want to share the opportunity for someone to come aboard the 4K team for an all-expenses-paid Summer road trip! We're hoping to bring someone on as a full-time driver to reduce the logistical challenges that we're currently presented with as a relatively small team. All you gotta do is drive and we'll take care of the cycling. Ideally, you would collect and share content to keep donors and followers engaged and excited along the way as well. The position will be unpaid but like I said, free road trip!!

If you're 21 or over and want to be part of something special, please reach out to me via email: haydenkwilliam@gmail.com

Disclaimer: I modified this graphic... it is not an official Ulman ad


A couple updates from me: I got an A on that paper I was struggling through! I take my last lab practical for exercise physiology in 5 hours and my group should be submitting our last assignment later today :) I'm getting kinda nervous thinking about all the free time I'll have! Also getting nervous about this Summer... especially since my training has been relatively nonexistent for the past couple of weeks 😬 

Ain't nothin to it but to do it!

p.s. if you didn't see my instagram/facebook post last night, I ate 6 cans of beans. It wasn't great but I'll still be eating beans today so I reckon it could've been worse :)


Monday, May 8, 2023

Day 36 -- Mistakes have been made

Happy Monday!! I have just three days of class left 😳

Last night I added $220 of cash/venmo from my Proteus fundraiser and March madness bracket (whoops... little late) to my fundraising page. That extra $220 brings our total to nearly $5,600! And if you remember, that means today is BEAN DAY!  I love beans and usually eat at least 1-2 cups every day so even though it's a little strange, I didn't think this would be too bad when I first proposed the incentive. However, I've already had one can of beans (red kidney) for breakfast and it was honestly not very enjoyable. I just went in for some pinto beans, and man, they were pretty bad 😂 

I've gotten pretty creative in the kitchen recently and love to make cool new dishes (last night I made some fantastic oven-roasted brussel sprouts), but many of my meals are still very simple: sometimes just beans, rice, and some spices... sometimes just beans and spices! But I never realized just how crucial the other flavors were. I'm committed now though, so no turning back. The last thing I need is to skimp out on calories but I'm not sure how many cans I can endure (at roughly 300-400 calories per can, I'd need to eat 6 just to make it to 2,000 calories) so today might end up being a bit of a fast as well lol. Should've done another banana day 😞

In other news, before writing this I finished another final paper! Gonna go back and proofread it after I post this and submit it. That'll leave me with one more paper/project and a lab practical tomorrow and then I just have to get through finals :)


Show your support and have a can of beans with me today


Sunday, May 7, 2023

Day 35 -- Thought I gave up didn't ya?

Happy Sunday evening everyone! Usually, I write my blogs in the morning but as you can see, it is not the morning. I crashed early after a fantastic Bluezapalooza last night (more about this at the end) and basically woke up, ate breakfast, and drove back to College Park (I'm just realizing right now that I don't have the typical anxiety I spoke about last time I came back from being home... cool). Then I scurried off to my last stream clean-up with my club, the Sustainable Ocean Alliance :')

After doing some laundry and more or less putzing around, here I am. I still haven't quite gotten back to a good sleep schedule so I'm hopeful to iron that out tonight. Before I say goodnight, however, I'm gonna knock out some reading and writing ahead of my final week of classes (😱). Some days I think for sure that I'll never return to school for a Master's or Doctoral degree but who knows what the future holds! One thing is for certain though: I'll be out of school for a minimum of a year, probably more. I listened to this podcast with Kevin Kelly today; the first 45ish minutes were fantastically inspiring for me as a young person unsure of what to do next. Essentially, Kevin is a huge advocate for zigging when everyone else is zagging (and telling you to do the same). 

While I may not return to traditional higher education, I think the experiences I'll have outside of the classroom will be highly educational and worth much more than another diploma. Don't get me wrong, college has inarguably changed my life for the better but now it's time to try something different for a little while. Just 28 days until the first 'something new' starts! After 4K, I might have to do something even more off the wall than cycling across the country. Or maybe I'll settle down for a bit. I really don't know! And I'm happy about that :)

It's so funny how our brains work. When I opened up this page, I had several ideas of what I wanted to write about and yet I immediately went down a totally different path. 

The first thing I wanted to talk about was Bluezapalooza. Man! It was so amazing. There were hundreds of people! The music was great, people were happy, and Blue gave an amazing speech AND crushed a surprise performance of "Save a Horse (Ride a Cowboy)". To conclude his speech, Blue dropped some serious wisdom about perspective. He advised us to think about the events of each day in three parts: (1) the negative, crappy parts, (2) the mundane, boring parts that you don't really think about much, and (3) the successes and positive parts. He went on to explain that sometimes (oftentimes) we have no control over how our days go... sometimes they're all 3's, sometimes all 1's, sometimes a mix of all three, etc. But, what we do have control over is our perspective. And really, that's the only thing that matters. Blue told us to appreciate the crap and the mundane for what they truly are and remember that they're just a natural part of our success. When life seems as bad as it can get, smile and take what you can get from it. And when you find success, enjoy it for it truly is, be in the moment, and soak up all the love and fun while it's there. This explanation is of course paraphrased and not nearly as articulate as Blue's but his words last night went straight to my heart and will never leave. Blue, if you happen to read this, thank you. You and your family are special people. Never stop. Love ya 💙


Hayden


Saturday, May 6, 2023

Day 34 -- Bluezapalooza!

Saturday, Saturday, Saturday, Saturday, Saturday, Saturday, Saturday, Saturday, Saturday night's alright!

Happy Saturday morning everyone. I'm back home in Easton again for the final time before I'm a 2x college graduate! (For those who don't know, I got an associate's degree in 2020). Today/tonight should be pretty special -- it's Bluezapalooza! My former high school soccer coach, Matt Blue, was diagnosed with colon cancer late last year and he's been nothing short of a beast in his fight. Bluezapalooza is a fundraising event/festival to support the Blue family; there's gonna be tons of people enjoying each other's company, music, food, and drinks! Should be a really good time.

Coach Blue had a significant impact on me as a young man; he taught me a lot about soccer and even more about life. I hope I can have a similar effect on one or two people in my life.


💙

Friday, May 5, 2023

Day 33 -- DONE

Happy Friday! And it is a happy Friday indeed! At around 12:30pm yesterday, I slid a 20-page paper (6-7 pages were just references) under my professor's door and by the end of the day I felt like myself again. I hadn't realized how stressed I actually was until around 3pm when it finally hit me that I was done and could relax a little. I felt like a whole new person! As usual, I'm probably being a little dramatic but I'm just glad to be done. I don't really know how well I did on the paper but I know I put in the work so I'm proud of that. This whole process and the previous few days in particular, has been a very valuable experience that I'm very grateful for. I'm also grateful to have been able to share it with y'all -- writing these posts and complaining to you guys helped me a lot.

The semester isn't over yet, though! I have another paper, a group project, and a lab practical due next week before two final exams the following week. But with this big paper done, the reality of my impending graduation (19 days!) is starting to set in. Crazy stuff, man.


4K departure is less than a month away!!!!

Thursday, May 4, 2023

Daily Blog Day 32 -- Didn't quite pull an all-nighter

Good morning friends! The past few days have been such a stark contrast to the rest of this semester. Before now, I was consistently in bed by 10pm, meditating twice a day, exercising regularly, and just generally taking great care of myself. Almost all of that has gone out the window and I'm very eager to return to it. Living in such an unregulated, unbalanced way is not fun. That said, this has been a fantastic learning experience and just another testament to the importance of maintaining daily practices to regulate my mind and body. I've still leaned on these practices throughout this hectic period, just with less conviction. I don't know how I would have survived without them. 

Early yesterday I went to the library to work on my paper and by the time I came home for lunch, I was all over the place; luckily I had the wherewithal to lie down and do a few rounds of Wim Hof breathing to cultivate some peace. It was incredible how dramatically I changed my mental state in just 10ish minutes... by the end, I was literally laughing! Even after that and many other experiences like it, it's still a challenge sometimes to engage in these behaviors that I know are good for me. But alas, it is a constant practice and I'll never be perfect and that's perfectly okay :)

As for my paper, I'm almost done... haha. At times I find myself in a great flow but those are often outnumbered by periods of total brain block. Like I said earlier, this has been a great learning experience; I've identified some strategies that help me think/write better and I realized the huge amount of work that goes into writing a paper like this. Though I think it's far from perfect and I wish I had more time, I'm proud of what I have come up with. 

In the past, I've procrastinated to the point where I had to cram pretty hard and ended up doing a decent job, but was rarely happy with the quality -- I always knew I could have and should have done better. This time is different, though because I didn't procrastinate, I simply didn't think it would be this much of a grind. So although it could be better, I think I can confidently say that I've done the best that I can... if that makes sense.

I planned to stay up all night to finish the paper but by midnight my brain was fried and my willpower was depleted. I went to sleep for a bit and then got back to work around 2am. Now I'm gonna let my brain recover with another nap before I finish this thing!!


😁

Wednesday, May 3, 2023

Daily Blog Day 31 -- Finishing Strong (or at least trying to)

I think the way in which I spend the next 24 hours is going to have a big impact on me. Like I mentioned yesterday, I'm writing this research paper on mindfulness and its really kicking my butt. I've never completed such a comprehensive, intense paper and thus gravely underestimated the time and effort it would take. I have about six pages to write by 12pm tomorrow and that's just that. There are no if ands or buts about it. 

At the Vipassana retreat in January I wanted to quit and run away on many occasions but I didn't. I faced the discomfort and wrestled with it. Now I find myself in a very similar position. I could totally blow up my last semester of college and fail to graduate on time if I run away now. I'm doing my best to remain present and avoid wishing things were different; it's only painful when I get stuck feeling sorry for myself repeating, "if only..." Otherwise, I can view it for what it actually is: an opportunity for learning and to do my best even if that doesn't look like what I thought it would.

Thanks for reading another edition of "Hayden self-therapy"!

Sunrise in NC a couple years ago. Makes me smile :)


Tuesday, May 2, 2023

Daily Blog Day 30 -- Thanks for growing 30 days older with me

30 days of daily blogs is done! If you haven't already noticed, these daily blogs have become sort of like journaling for me so I might honestly just keep going. We shall see!

I will be writing about the people I'm riding for soon but I want to be able to give that post the attention it deserves, and right now, I am lacking in spare attention. It's so funny how I'm writing a paper about mindfulness which is causing me a ton of stress and making me deviate from my usual mindfulness practices. With things so hectic and stressful, now is the best and most important time to lean into meditation and other strategies to stay sane. But the human brain is so crazy and smart and dumb all at the same time and makes us do crazy, dumb things while preventing us from doing smart things. Anyway, I'm not gonna go down that rabbit hole.

Today I want to take the opportunity to reflect on the past 30 days! First of all, thank you all for reading and being a part of this little challenge. I won't be as dramatic as I usually am but I still want to make it known that I truly appreciate you taking the time out of your day to check out what I have to say. I have my qualms with social media and technology (as we all do) but it really is quite neat that I can type up some nonsense every day and y'all can read it from anywhere in the world.

After a popular first post in this 30-day stretch, my second entry only had one reader. Then, when I complained about that in the third post, 50+ people read it!! That was hilarious but also kinda touching, ya know? People felt sorry for my lack of readership and gave me their pity... lol. On average though, I think most posts got 10-15 views which is pretty cool! Again, this has been more of a journaling practice than anything but the fact that some of y'all might have gotten something from it too is awesome... I hope you did :)

I don't remember if I mentioned this in one of my previous posts, but my current plan for the Summer is to post a blog at least once a week as a reflection on the previous miles covered, challenges faced, and lessons learned. In addition to that, I think I'll post a short video to my instagram every morning before we hit the road. I have no idea what life will be like over the 70 days so these might be ambitious goals... if I need to adjust, I'll adjust! On a related note, if y'all know anyone out West who could give us a place to stay, please let me know. We're still looking for a host in these cities.


See y'all tomorrow ;)


Team Tahoe Needs Your Help

Hey friends! Team Tahoe is still looking for hosts in a bunch of places out West. Please check out the list below to see if you know anywhere we might be able to stay!



  • Bradley, IL
  • Des Moines, IA
  • Audubon, IA
  • Omaha, NE
  • Columbus, NE
  • Arapahoe, NE
  • Fort Morgan, CO
  • Boulder, CO
  • Estes Park, CO
  • Kremmling, CO
  • Edwards, CO
  • Carbondale, CO
  • Paonia, CO
  • Moab, UT
  • Green River, UT
  • Capitol Reef, UT
  • Escalante, UT
  • Bryce Canyon, UT
  • Orderville, UT
  • Caliente, NV
  • Ely, NV
  • Eureka, NV
  • Austin, NV
  • South Lake Tahoe, CA
  • Groveland, CA
  • Napa, CA
  • Santa Rosa, CA
  • Mill Valley, CA

Please reach out to me on instagram, facebook, or email (haydenkwilliam@gmail.com) if you have connections in any of these cities. Any help is very much appreciated :)

Monday, May 1, 2023

Daily Blog Day 29 -- Falling asleep at the wheel

Don't worry, I'm not actually dozing while driving! I was however, nodding off a tad while writing my paper so I decided to switch it up and try to get some energy from this.

Yesterday was a pretty long day and today looks like it'll be at least as long. If I can get through this week, though, I'm golden. I only have one final during finals week and our last day of class is next Thursday so as long as nothing goes totally wrong, I should be basically done with school in 10 days! Sheesh, that's nuts!

As long as the day was, I am again immensely grateful. I spent a couple of hours back at Proteus for their bike advocacy meeting with the Washington Area Bicyclist Association and state/council representatives. Although I won't be a College Park resident for much longer, it was very cool to see a bunch of people coming together to talk about important stuff surrounding bike safety and infrastructure. It was quite inspiring and left me feeling optimistic for my future as a hopeful change-maker. On top of all that, I met some more cool people and sold more treats to support Ulman; we raised an additional $56 cash plus a direct $50 donation to my page! By the way, I'm waiting to "re-donate" the cash until I can deposit it into my bank account later this week... I promise I'm not running away with your money 😅

Well, I feel a tiny bit more energized but still sleepy. Gonna go for a walk next -- if I'm still out of it, I might take a morning nap 😮


This is me

Good night!


Day 40 -- The Blog has a new home!

Good evening blog readers! I'm super late to posting today but the streak continues! When I started posting daily in April I had no inte...